Saturday, September 21, 2013

Starting Again

Ok, so I'm starting over.

I had a blog and I had a different time/place in my life.  This is a fresh start.

I had a back injury and a knee injury...and then another back injury.  They were all unpleasant, all non-running related.  Then to top it off I had a divorce.  A crappy, slightly unexpected divorce.  One I did not handle well. 

The last year has not been me at my best.  I've drank too much.  I've spent too much time with girls trying to fill a void.  I've pitied myself like that would provide some relief.  I've failed.

I'm over all of that.  I've finally accepted my position.  I've decided to try again.  I want to forgive myself for anything I may have done wrong.  I want to forgive myself for whatever led to the divorce and the 3 or 4 races that I had committed to, but did not complete.  Not only didn't complete, but didn't start. 

I'm in a good spot.  A new head space where I feel confident.  I want to write more.  I'm working out again and training, going to train through the Winter and then start running further in the Spring.  I'm looking forward to next year.  I want to come back.  I'm not fast.  I'll never be fast.  Probably never be thin or have the body type I want, but I finally want to try again.  I feel good...mentally and physically.  I've had too many chances wear testing for some great companies and representing Team reGen and Team Aquaphor as an Active Ambassador to be as selfish and wasteful as I've been over the last year.

Coming back and feeling good!  Let's do this!

1 comment:

  1. I'm really proud of you. You don't even know. :) You've come a long way, baby!! I want you to see yourself the way I see you. Perfectly inspiring, ambitious, determined, and deserving of love, luck, and happiness.