Thursday, January 1, 2015

This feels backwards

I was asleep by 10:30 last night, new year's eve, and was up at 6:23 this morning, which has allowed me a lot of time to think today. My conclusion, I'm feeling truly, honestly hopeful for the first time in a long time. And this...seems backward. I reflected on last new year when I had a girlfriend that cared for me deeply and would do almost anything to see me happy and I had started a new job in which I was lucky enough to work with one of my favorite people in the world, but I was scared, uncertain and felt lost. However, here I am today, no girlfriend and no real prospect of one and, although I help with the family business, I'm basically unemployed and looking for a career.

Maybe it's the patience and perseverance I gained over the last 12 months, but I'm happier and more open to the possibility of a bright future now that I have a lot to gain, instead of being comfortable in the wrong place having made wrong decisions.

At any rate, I'm happy to be here and ready to accept all the blessings this life has to offer.

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